does good things ever happen????

hey everyone
well since people take 12 smoke breaks a day and then decide they dont want to work on black friday...im going to blogg. :)

this weekend was pretty laid back. robbie and i did very little. saturday we went out with my mom and grandmother to valley view farms. robbie was amazed to see all the christmas decorations and told me that it was alot like what ill see in germany. :) sunday, we headed to amber's for evan's 1st bday! it was so cute to see him open presents and shove cake in his face! robbie did survive it. but he was worn out when we got home. lol it was great to see emmy & josh and jenna & benny. but it also made me realize how much i cant wait for it to be my turn to get married and children. robbie is still excited about hopefully that happening one day. he just wont say when. but i have the funny feeling it will be soon. my mother is still asking me about reception halls and my dress. and now she is asking if my cell will work over in europe. im like nope. ill have to email you from houses or call you at times from his family house. she seemed disapointed. whats the big deal if my phone doesnt work? if she knows hes going to propose over there, then whats the big deal if i dont call? i just dont get it. clue number three is that he said to me lastnight "You dont know how hard it is for me not to tell you some stuff." WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN! he wants an open and honest relationship.so do it! lol i dont know what ill do if he does it over there. ill be happy dont get me wrong. but if ive been stressing myself out about wondering and knowing hes going to do it in germany and worrying about my mother giving premision for him to do it...im going to be upset. anyone who knows me knows i hate surprises! esp when it keeps me from planning! lol

so we shall see. germany is coming soon. and im excited and from emails so is his aunt! her last email to me seemed like she couldnt wait!!!! his father on the other hand....yea....if he is the way he is towards me like he is with robbie i dont see myself liking him that much. i plan not to be at his house that much. just to shower, eat dinner, and sleep. fine by me! i know if i was him i would be excited that my son is coming over for the second time in less then a year. and that he's brining a girl who i would guess is special to him! who knows.

work is getting worse. the same stuff happens everyday. and now with it being thanksgiving. wanda is in vegas. people are doing whatever they want. meaning people are taking off now black friday who were spost to be working. i refuse to be the only one here answering phones and checking in patients. i will pretend im sick and not come in if i find out that will happen. im tire of being a team player and not having anyone else help out. hence another reason i want to know when robbie will propose. so i can start getting my life in a VA together. and get a new job.

ok well thats all for now. im so excited for GERMANY!!!!