just chilling like a villian

hey everyone
well its the end of febuary and im still jobless. but hopefully by the begining of march ill have a job. i had three interviews this past week that went pretty well. one person told me i was the front runner for the job but she still had a interview on tuesday. the only thing with that one is the money. she doesnt think she can get me 13.00 per hour. the second one has called all my references and spent at least 30mins with eachone. one reference told me that she seemed very intrested in me and said she liked me alot. the third one is a pest control company (oh btw the first one was medical billing. the second was a cardiology place) which isnt something im that thrilled about i want to stay in medical. however its 8minutes away from my house and they are willing to pay or be close to what im asking for. needless to say nothing in va. i still have head hunter there and now in md. robbie and i have discussed house hunting once i get a job on the va/md border. the one place i inteviewed at in the begining which everyone thought i would get never called me back. and to top it off, they are still looking according to my md head hunter. which is weird. and they havent even called her back. whatever.

so anywho, minhee and marissa are down in baltimore as of this past wednesday. she wasnt spost to be down till monday. well really not at all this year. however that changed when her dads mother took a turn for the worse. she was moved to hospice and the family was told she wasnt going to make it till that monday when she had her orginal flight. so she came home wedensday. her father also came in that day from atlanta. everyone was able to get there and see her. she was already going down hill. well on thursday min, marissa, dad, mom, and i were at the super walmart. mins dad was in the truck not feeling well, her mom had to run and get something before we checked out and min, me, and the baby were together. min's cousin called and the look on her face told me her grandmother passed. i was glad that she got here in time to see her at least. the viewing was lastnight and the funeral is today. minhee will be here till my bday. which she actually leaves on that day. im glad shes here and marissa has grown up this past year! what till you see pictures. we have some plans which can be adjusted if i get a job.

amberlys little leo turned 4 this month!!!!!! wow! he and mirissa are now 4yrs old!!!! I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!! im so excited that hoepfully one day ill have this joy that all my friends are having with their children.

so when robbie and i started dating, he talked me into getting a facebook page. ok i already have myspace so what would i need a facebook page for? well im glad he did. minhee and i have only kept intouch with eachother since graduation. well cyrstal was also around but she made her own bed against us. so we dont talk to her anymore. anywho, with this facebook page thing i have found several people who i did like in highschool and are able to get back in touch with them. its awsome to see who has gotten married, collge, have kids, moved, etc. i have had a few people who have tried to friend me who i know right well in highschool had left a big scare on me or on minhee. people say that you need to forgive and forget, however when someone cutts you that deeply, you cant. i have even told people at the old job thing that not to double cross me. that if you are going to be my friend, then you need to do it all the time. not when its covience to you or helps you, but all the time! ive learned what friends that are true friends. amberly, minhee, kiki, robbie.

germany family update: well everyone is doing well. dad and petra have had alot of snow. and petra says the dogs want spring to come. we are planning to go back in september of 2010. so we are excited to see everyone! the aunt and uncle are doing well and have gotten back from kind of like a retreat kind of thing. its like a cleansing kind of thing they do over there.

robbie and i are doing good. we are spending less and working harder on getting me a job. he keeps telling me that ill find something and after that we can take the next step which is deciding on where to buy the house. we are also starting to plan a vacation. granted we are heading to luray for memorial day weekend to see my friends. but we are also planning to go to either myrtle beach, virgina beach, or the outter banks. we are now going with some friends. john, stephanie, johns daughter, brenda, and hopefully another couple that robbie knows. so if we get enough people and decide where to go i can start hunting for either a condo or a house to rent!!!! robbie has been keeping up my spirits as much as he can when he can. i did hit a low point this past monday. i didnt get out of bed let alone get out of my yoga pants and tee shirt. and slept all day. i know i can be hard headed at times and depressing to be around. hopefully again this will all change this week. one thing that has gotten me determined to find a job and continue to fight is hopkins winning with me not getting unemployment. as usual they lied about stuff. and i was going to give up but mom and robbie told me to keep appealing as much as i can just to waste time and money on hopkins end! which i intend to do. i will never work for hopkins ever again. and everyone said that with having them and seton keough on my resume i wouldnt have a problem getting a job. that isnt true. yes hopkins looks impressive but if the manager doesnt give you a good review, then youre SOL.

anywho. got to go make chili in the crockpot for dinner tonight. and i have robbie hooked on survivor now. we have it ON DEMAND on our fios. :) pictures to come from min and marissa to be home!

loves and hugs!

general update

hey everyone
well i have been spending alot of time in va. which is great! i have had a few interviews here and in baltimore. i had an interview today with a head hunter type of person. shes got a client that wants an experienced receptionist in ob/gyn. which of course you would think would be me. but shes got two more interviews. needless to say my mom isnt thrilled to deat about me moving in with robbie before we are engaged. but something is telling me that soon as i get a new job things are going to be moving fast. we are going to look for a two bedroom apartment if i get this job. that is until we get a house thing. meaning ill be in md on weekends. ive thought about bringing chase down and see how he would do in an apartment setting but being a hound and use to having a yard it might be hard for him. and robbie knows i want to get a house ASAP so i can bring him down here. just everything is up in the air right now. and it kind of urks me. for those who know me i have to have a plan for everything at all times! even when we went to germany i had plans for us! at least where we were going to go and what times!

tomorrow im back in bmore. not by choice. for one i had a job interview in the city at 9am. however lovely unemployment wants to have the conference call at that time! wtf! so with the past holiday i couldnt resceduale the apointment in time. so i had to call the interviewer and see if i could get a later time. luckly i did but they didnt sound thrilled about it. the move i think about it the more i realize i rather just count my losses and move to VA. anywho the call tomorrow is bc hopkins said i voulintaryly resigned. what ever. i was forced to resign. i was told hopkins policy is that either you are fired or you resign. if you are fired you cant use them as a reference (meaning you cant put them on your resume) and then its false information on a resume. being forced to resign however means i can use them as a reference, and possibly come back (of course who would want to?). but you wont be able to get unemployment. we shall see. i plan to tell them i was forced to resign and when all this shit went down i was told i said something i didnt say and no one from HR would talk to me about the slander. which is bs. i think wanda will be involved tomorrow to go against me and for hopkins. if thats the case and she is trying to save her own job i will not be speaking to her ever again. she has used me to much to save her own ass. plus the fact that i have covered for her. and this is the thanks i get?

saturday is going to be busy for us in md. i have a gyn appointment. which is always lovely. then run home to pick robbie up and be at a memorial service for former employee from the highschool. she passed away the saturday after the stuff went down from brain cancer. shes in a better place now. ill be attending but will be going in right when the service starts and sitting in the back. and then leaving right when it ends. robbie is going with me to make sure i dont punch someone in the face if for some reason someone tries to talk to me. guess its the russian in me with the temper and everything.

i know ive been wrapped up in my own life right now and havent really asked my friends how their lives are. i know for one person amberly i should be more of a friend to her right now. and im sorry for that. i know shes trying hard to help her father and raise her own family. and all ive been doing is bitching about my life to her. and the same with min. shes going through some stress in her life and all i call about is bitching about my life. and if ive done that anyone else please let me know. i do aplogize for all this. ive done it to robbie also. hes been so supportive of me in the past few weeks. well actually since bs has started in the highschool. and unfort at times my pride hurts him. i dont like excepting money or charity or anything from other people. either him, min, amber, or my mom. and i know its hurting them for it. im the one who wants to get married and everything to this man and i guess ill have to learn eventually that some times the other person needs to carry more of the burden in the relationship. i guess im just use to being that person thanks to my Xs. hopefully however i wont need to borrow money or anything from someone and hat ill be able to get a job!!! but i love him so much and slowly im letting guard down and letting him help me.

ok got to go meet him and some of his coworkers for lunch!

loves and hugs!

vday posting

hey everyone
sorry i havent written in a while. i lost my job about a week ago. long story. but its for the best. im less stressed now and looking on to much better things. hopkins won and i hope they all suffer from it. i was the most dependable person there. wanda was sad to see me go. but i dont think she had any choice in the matter. whatever. shes trying to save her own butt in that place and she wont be able to soon. whatever. so i have had a few interviews in both md and va. ive had one interview with cheasapeak urology last week and actually have another interview on monday with the site manager. they have called both wanda and three of my other references. which everyone tells me is a good thing. ill be happy to be working again. but was hoping to get something in va since im planning to move down here in the very near future. but i need a job. esp with it being vday and i couldnt even afford a card for robbie. and i know what you all will say and everything but the man bought me a wii for vday! i felt so bad. he wanted to know bc i was saving for one when i was forced to quit. so as soon as i get money coming in again ill going to take him to something he's never been to.

so thats what we have been doing since thursday. playing wii. we went out to dinner lastnight to beat the crowed from tonight. it was really nice to go out to dinner together and just be romantic. im so lucky to have a wonderful man like him. he has been so supportive with everything and has been trying to help me any way he can with me being jobless. :) i just keep thinking what i would do if i didnt have him in my life.

ok have to run out to great falls with robbie, stef, and mo! :) ill write more later!

Happy Valentines Day!